Some Place

Time opened up like the mouth of an atmosphere
Held us in a capsule like space holds fear…outside of itself,
outside of its existence,
We were the only resistance
But our answered desires embraced us
Without apology
We were our own gravity
Held in place

Some place

…where I saw you
and in turn, I saw me
In such an attractive light
Together we were like “higher heights
Always climbing
Always shining

Like a land that tastes like harmony
Like a home made potency

But – its compliments drizzled exclusivity
…on a Rome already standing
We stood tall
We did!

Our saving pact was to leave town
and so that was our entrance to finding each other
But how do we leave behind a Rome already built?
Not able to keep it together…
Forgetting that we are the sky,
and not the weather

Like racing back to your body so that it can awake in a physical world
Like searching for a lost world, because yesterday it was home
So too our spirits disconnected from a mutually created field
We will learn to yield?

Having coaxed the universe to create an entrance
Having defied distance
I hope to find that place we shared again
Just as we did the first time

You should already know
That the “One Day” I kept on telling you about
Will be our amazing defeat against doubt
Just like the first time

Until then
I’m wishing on that “Some Place
A complete retrace
of alignment

Let’s be a new Rome

To, la chose la plus étonnante que j’ai jamais vu

Blue Sun

27 degrees.
The sun is finally here.
British love.
The rush of the masses float in the air like heat from a fire.
Like a stream racing to the sea.
Me.
Restless energy.
Missing a beat.
Incomplete.
Anti climaxing.

One day I’ll figure out why the sun and I cannot share a stage…

– Come see me in the afternoon 

Don’t Let Me Go

Redefine me
I’ve been erasing…..
Slow me down
My heart is racing….
Because nothing fits
And I feel like I’m chasing
A past life, but I’m so over it
Today calls but I don’t have the answer
Tomorrow bekons but I barely recognise her
The lens I used to see her through is no longer
Those habitual routines that kept me under, now suffer
I’m nervous
I ponder

Don’t let me go
I still believe in you…
(Or is it that I fail to realise that you do not require my belief to hold me?)

Don’t let me go
I still believe in you
But what does it mean if I no longer accept this view…
Who are you and did I ever really know you?

Let’s start over
Perhaps I’m ready now
Controversial territory
But I must make it somehow
It seems you have been expecting me
Were we speaking through a closed-door before?
Though it seems you have accepted all of me
I am still learning about what it is to really want you more…
I still need you, for sure

Understand me.

If I neglect you
It’s because I’m neglecting myself
If I hide myself away
It’s because I’d rather be true than have a lie to tell
Because You are me and I am You
You want me –
I need You!

I’m conscious that I don’t fit
I just don’t sell “Your package” well
I advertise my authenticity
Such a controversial wealth…

Don’t let me go
I still believe in you
But what will it mean if I embrace a new view
A new me
A new You

These clothes have carried rules
But I’m through
I never did belong
And I still don’t have a clue
Who it is I represent
I’m sorry I must vent
I refuse to wear a “name” – just for the sake
Because people play games,
They “wear” fame,
They trade “names”
Until the name once proclaimed
No longer means the same.

I’d rather stay true.

Because how can I preach “happy”
And yet be the practice of sadness?

How can I preach freedom
When I myself remain nameless?

I was there
Selling a “word” that I hadn’t seen for myself
Alone in my world
With no story to tell
– Apparently avoiding hell…

The One who has seen it
She knows it
The One who has felt it
She is able to show it
So I seek my own sight
My own show
Even when all else fails
I will know
That truth remains in You
Nowhere else

Somehow –
I feel it now
But I just haven’t seen it yet!
I know You now
I just haven’t found the words for it yet!

Can I let you go….
…so that I can find you again?
If I remove what I thought I did know….
…will you meet me before the end?

Can we start again?

If it was meant It will come back around.
Or so they say.
But I truly believe it is here I was meant to be found!
This is our ground.
The one you formed me out of.

Don’t let me go….

A Close Encounter With Love

(I thought I was speaking with Love…)

Never really wanted to do this
Convinced to take a risk
To believe
You
To trust
Us

Feeling so cheated!
Assured it wouldn’t hurt – But it did
Lies from you to me
Manipulation spree
I let you in
Saw what you told me to see
Gave you everything
Became nothing
For you to betray me?

Still, I know no other
Still, you’re my only
My everything, my lover!
The only one who truly knows me

Never stopped revealing
Myself unclothed
Promised healing
But instead you left me exposed

Why lead me to hope –
Why conceal the real scope –
And then you ask me to cope?
Unwanted outcomes forced down my throat!

You took the dream right out of me
I tread cautiously
Now
Over thinking every step
Not sure where to reconnect

{Love answered and said…)

You’ve poured out your heart
The same heart that I gave you
I’ve always known you
So much more than you do!
Not one of your tears have escaped me
You fail to see

You refuse to stay calm
You reject my alarms

What is too much for you,
Was never meant for you to do
You choose to
But you didn’t have to

I feel that too

We’re never apart
I carry your every step and make good your path
I understand your todays and I know beyond your tomorrows
Aligning your sorrows
For good

It’s not that I leave you alone
I just go ahead
Not to fail you,
But to prepare you instead

My promises are true
You should be careful who you listen to
Because although you have broken yours,
I will always love you

You speak of hurt,
When you abandon me?
I remain committed to you,
When sometimes you choose to deny me?

If you were unable feel,
You would not know me
Be thankful that you will never know true “lonely”
Love is perfect, not necessarily easy

Understand me.

Your will is your own
Choose freely

But…
I’m asking you to trust me when it hurts
To love me when it burns
Because I am your flame
Do not confuse me for your pain
Learn me.
Know me.
Hear me.
Feel me.

One day you will see
That you are one with me.

When Your Best Days……

Letting go doesn’t always mean giving up. #Just saying!

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When your best days seem to be behind you…
When only responsibility seems to keep you going through…
When you know in your heart that the desire to be responsible will descend!
When all around you seems to be a dead end!
When your search is far more than to merely survive.
When breathing needs a new meaning, to transcend being alive;
because breathing is no longer easy,
and your eyes are no longer seeing what they should be.
When you can no longer pretend…
When you have no more energy to put on this show;
When your heart bleeds, when your soul contends,
because you are so close to letting go!
Nobody would ever know…
…that life has become a question!
But because you do not have the heart to take life,
because in fact you would really prefer to live and strive
You hold on…
You hope, s
Secretly…

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